So I had an internal company training thing today for IT people…  one of my colleagues told me to network over there ’cause you might need to know someone in other divisions if you ever wanna move around etc.

So fine… I mentally prepped myself, gave myself little pep talks on how to start a conversation with someone…I know it comes easy for some of you… it doesn’t for me… I go through alot of anxiety when talking to someone new… I’m not funny…charming… or anything like that.. so I have always been the one sitting in the corner in a group…

1st attempt: saw a very attractive female in a nice suit come in, we looked at eachother, smiled, and I thought I found my target… but alas I couldn’t get the courage high up to approach her… she wa swya too pretty for me, i know my limits!

2nd attempt: the much older lady sitting next to me, spoke to her for a little bit while she complained…then I realized she resented all young people, because she kept syaing things like how my generation has it easy and how her daughter, who’s my age doesn’t appriciate what she has….ooookay

The russian lady in my table was too busy being a smart ass asnwering all the questions so I left her alone.

But while I was trying my best to make some female friends, the cute asian guy who was sitting next to me, kept making jokes, and asking what page we were on, where I worked and all that…and by the end of the day I had swapped e-mails with a boy, whom I wasnt even trying to network with simply because he was a boy…. WHY ARE WOMEN SO HARD TO GET?

Well atleast i networked!!!!! It’s a step towards being more social!!! w00t w00t!